Much water went down the Ganges since my first awakening in 1998.
(See article: Enlightenment, before during and after).
16 years of integration and opening lay behind me, years that brought so many pieces of the puzzle together. 
All this time, I was waiting for this integration to come full circle, to be complete. Not noticing that I was falling into the same trap again as I did then: Believing that there is finality to the journey.

Resurfacing now, from my yearly solitary silent retreat, it has finally landed that there is no completion ever. That God is an endless journey. If one circle closes it is only for another one to open to go the same round only from a higher and different perspective. What a relaxation!!

Trust is an absolute necessity for our spiritual development. Without it, it is difficult to even enter the path and transformation will be nearly impossible.
Transformation means that something changes into something else. Copper turns to gold. After transformation the copper is not the same anymore and it cannot know the gold until it becomes it. In the same way the butterfly cannot know itself while being a caterpillar.
In other words, we have no idea what will happen when we let go of our old familiar ego structure.

I use the word trust here in the sense of basic trust. This is something else than psychological trust, which is based on trustworthiness.
Basic trust means that we have the feeling that our life naturally unfolds and evolves in the right direction.
That whatever happens, it will always be good, even though we don’t know yet what it will be.
Basic trust seems to be a pre condition for us to let go into the unknown and not knowing.
You may have noticed already that not knowing is one of the most difficult things for our ego to tolerate, while for the aware part in us it is the most natural state.