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For years, copying other people, I tried to know myself.
From within, I couldn't decide what to do. Unable to see, I heard my name being called. Then I walked outside. --------------- The breeze at dawn has secrets to tell you. Don't go back to sleep. You must ask for what you really want. Don't go back to sleep. People are going back and forth across the doorsill where the two worlds touch. The door is round and open. Don't go back to sleep. --------------- While walking, sitting, cooking, working, singing or watching TV sense you arms and your legs from within without trying to change anything and without valuing what you are finding. Sensing them just as they factually, physically feel. ( hot, cold, flowing, stuck, frozen, etc).
This is a very powerful practice the heal the fundamental split between the inner and the outer. If you add looking and keep 55 % of the energy in the sensing of the arms and legs and only 45 % into the looking you become very anchored in the here and now. My spiritual journey started in 1976 at the red sea in Israel. I felt lost in this world, there was so much pain in and around me, and I had hoped that a trip around the world (on bicycle) would bring a change. Of course the traveling only accentuated that the pain and the restlessness were inside of me.
One day, I saw a big jellyfish lying on the beach and I was looking for the center, for the core of the animal and I could not find it. Out of nowhere I realized that I also did not have a center, and that it was very important to find that. At that time I also often mindlessly drew the Möbius sign in the sand (the sign of infinity, or an eight lying on its back). Without knowing the sign, it evoked a feeling in me that everything was somehow eternally connected. My energy and attention turned towards the inside. Of course I had no idea that this was the irrevocable beginning of a life long journey of self discovery. |
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